Stefanie sun yan zi

Sunday, January 13, 2008
my bro's enlistment

today is my bro's big day... hahaha... but its not the kind that u are thinking of. he's enlisting into the army. as i'm penning this entry, he's probably on the ferry on his way to pulau tekong. today marks the start of his 2yrs of agony(for guys who have been thru ns, you know what i mean) ...

however, i think my bro's life inside the army will be much easier than mine simply because he's a pes e soldier. This is due to his health problems. He has constant knee pains and, on a couple of occasions, experienced heart burns. This said, i will still not exchange the experiences that i have for my bro's if give n a choice to start everything anew. though my life in the army has not been a smooth sailing one due to my hot- headedness, nevertheless, i learnt and saw many things. this includes the chance to see the millions of bright and shining stars while lying down on your groundsheet on the soil in tekong, learning to drive an army jeep and learning to handle and fire a weapon. this are some of the things i believe my bro will not get a chance to learn.

as of now, i'm not sure whether i did the right thing in not accompanying my bro to his enlistment this morning... this is because i am currently on a 1week study break and have a test tmr... i have been asking myself this qns for the last few days. even though my bro is not the sort of person to voice out his feelings, i somehow felt that he would have been happier and more reassured had i accompany him in. then again, my main reason in not doing so is my achillies heel; poor time management. if i had started studying earlier, it would have freed up more of my time for today and i would not have any excuse not to send him off. haiz...

anyway, next week will be the start of my 10day exam marathon in which i am am sitting for 5papers. soon after that will be CNY and its the 2nd mth of 2008. time really flies... my hope and resolution for this year will be the same as before- to learn to manage my time better:)
wish me luck!

___* hummed a yanzi tune + 5:22 PM

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